29th JUN

I pray:::::
JESUS,
Please give me a friend that can stay beside me 24hours..
Doesnt want to be alone..
Amen

PeacefuL

A peaceful day i ever had in these year
Since i go kl to having my hair course until now..
I think its about 3year..?
Throw everything away and just thinking for myself..
And i was thinking..
Because of him ..how much did i changed?
My bad tempered, my arrogant..
Everything just lost when he appear in my life..
I tolerant all his shortcoming..bad tempered tat he cant changed..
But once and once i get hurt from him..
Who the one tat console me?
I always hope the person was him but he never..
Did he noticed this? i think he didnt..
Why i cant be stand alone and having my own life..
Always im the one who rely on him too much..
And im awake from sleep..
i shouldnt be like now anymore..
I SHOULD CHANGE myself to a independent girl..
Is it he is mine? or im him?
Listen what my heart talk to me..
Im try hard to left a place for myself in his heart..
I do one's utmost,do the best one can..
But if there are no my place i shouldnt do like now..
I wil let go myself..
Stop pulling myself so hard and suffering..
Hope my heart was always peaceful like now..
Jesus help me to walk along this..

Miss him...

Miss him so muchhh!!
MISS HIM
More than words can describe..

MR.Wong B C

I will forgive you &
scrub all unhappy memory..
This time i confident and believe
i can do this..
**[ But i doesnt hope u will see this post ]**

♥ 928 days ♥

I HATE THURSDAY..
My bad day..
Worst day..
all happened on THURSDAY...

Thinking...

I always thinking how to be a good girl..
How to be a good girlfriend..
And now i was thinking..
My mummy said that i was a good daughter..
But may be im not good enough..
For him..
Am i a good girlfriend?
i think this question started from the day we together..
Until now,
sometime when we argue he said my
tempered was bad? and the way i talk to him is not
polite enough..some more?
Woohhh,
A lot thing telling me that Im not a good girlfriend..
Am i ?
But i know thing that i didnt did well is,
i didnt believe him like others believe their boyfriend..
i didnt look him as the strongest in the world,
Or the people that can protect me..
And i always thinking that why he got so many disadvantage..
for example he is a smoker,
his tempered is 100times worst than mine..
he always talking rude words as he tell me that
he cant correct this bad habit..
A days go by a day.. i know more and more about him,
Instant,
i didnt respect him as much as the passed day..
How horrible if this happened between a couple?
And what maintain our relationship til now?
If asking me, i think its just a habit of us..
We get used to have each other in our life..
Now,he is going back to Kl,
and i have no people to acc me for breakfast,
No people buy my lunch for me,after work..
There are also no people can fetch
me to buy my thing,my dinner..
But cant negate that we have a happy moment too..
When we put down everything..
When we just concentrate on each..
Didnt argue of those little thing..
We are happy..
As i always say we are playing with xiao xiong..
WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY
I cant live manage myself when i have no him..
Thats the reason that i just silent when we argue,
i just silent when he is scolding me..
Silent can stop our argument,
Silent is the way is solve the problem of us..
The end the problem is stil there ?
Ya...
when i close my eye,
the problem is appear on my mind..
And i cant get the happiness like others..
I envy when i look at other couple..
Why they can smile so happily..
And the reason i cant is..
I truss up myself in him..
I never let go him and also myself..
Even i know the reason..
I stil cant let go..
And i keep waiting the miracle..
I hope jesus can change him to a person i really want..
Or I just dont hope to waste my 2year half on him?
Im the silliest..


So sorry for did a post like this here..
I doesnt hope people know much about us..
And i stil hope that we are a sweet couple that make people admire..