You..

Why never give up

"Anything"

because of me?

♥Beee Simbee♥

I ♥ myself
I ♥ myself
I ♥ myself
I ♥ myself
I ♥ myself

So proud to shout this out..
I love myself so much...
I didnt have a perfect face,
& a perfect body..
But atleast im a soft girl..
A very simply and clean in mind..
I swear i never did lie on u..
So i love myself so much..
So proud to being a girl like myself..
And i have no reason to become
weak in front u and the girl anymore..
NO!! and never..
If my outlook was lost, my heart was win..
JESUS let me be a kind person forever...
Give me strength to took the pain and
Give me stregnth to be myself well in my life..
Amen ♥
Friend, thanks for accom me these day..
And scold me so much because of my silly..
I am awake !
I wil stop blaming on myself anymore..
I dont hate myself anymore..
I will learns to LOVE myself more..
Atleast i know i have a good heart and attitude
Thanks...♥♥ 16 and uncle kelvin ♥♥

Truth

Finally i knew everything..
How silly am i..
I knew it 2weeks but didnt accept the truth
& how cruel was it..
DOESNT
wanna think about it anymore..


Truth was always cruel..

Lifeless

If u miss me..
U wil call me cause u cant stand the feeling of not listening my voice..
If u love me..
U wil worry about me..
Dont lie yourself..
I dont love anymore..
Cause im so pain in love..

17/7/2010

I dont know what u thinking
&
I wondering what u thinking

After 1hour will i still in your mind?

MBWBC

I am just nothing for you,
I knows this so i could let go easily..
I am forcing myself to
live the life i doesnt like..
After so much pain i hope there
is just left happiness in the rest of my life..
And i really want to say..
I do one's best !!!
I have nothing that i did wrong right?
Cause i gave all my heart..
And never talk any lies on u..
But u the one who choose to give up 1st..
YOU should admit that^^
YOU didnt choose to cross along ur problem with me.
I always know i couldnt help but iI can be ur listener
But you NEVER let..
I hope no more tearss for me..& you
We could have happy life without each other..
So lets cheerss !! for our future ?
Ya!! and letss earn much much much of money ^^
心跳正常了,因为放开了..

BIE

We having a same dream,
But we walking a different way,
Time was passing by..
After so much,
Will we meet again when we reached
the point we was doing so much for ?
May be half year & 1 year,
May be we are too tired and dont choose to meet again?

I dont ♥ myself

I am not good enough !
I am not pretty enough!
I am so hurt when u not just looking at me !
MADNESS

1more secret to tell :
So sweet when i reading back the diary of WBC ..
when im going china with mummy and he is
waiting me back here..
MISSING and MISSED that..
& i know the person i missing was not you..
Just a boy in the sweet memory in my mind..
Also deep inside heart..
Cause the YOU wil never came back to me again..
Just wanna tell the YOU in my memory,
Truly
I LOVE YOU so much!!
MISS YOU so much...
Everything is just too late and cant be return..

If You love me ,
PLEASE
say u love me..
say u miss me..
say u need me..
ask me to wait u..
call me always..
message me always..
worry about me..
hug me kiss me in my dream..
left some tear in my shoulder,
show me how deep was your love..
share all the problem with me..
let me be the 1st person in ur mind,
ALL the time..
IF u loves me,
SHOWS me by action !

14/7 Morning

‎"Bury" all the SWEET memory

&

"forget" the SAD memory !

遗憾的美丽-陆瑶

如果人生是一趟漫長旅行
走了幾萬公里 遇見最愛的你
愛情就像兩個人的接力
我們都努力 讓幸福延續

後來我們各自追求風景
面對分離課題 我學會了開心
多慶幸當初沒有錯過你
當我寂寞時 也沉迷回憶

你的愛就像彩虹 劃過天際
不能永遠收集 也驚歎那遺憾的美麗
誰說分手一定是悲劇
時光倒轉我還是要愛你
要不是你 帶我走出恐懼
我沒有再愛的勇氣

你的好就像一首 老歌旋律
聽過多少歌曲 也單戀那最初的熟悉
有些感動沒人能接續
重新選擇我還是要愛你
給我快樂多過於傷心
　
都很清晰
後來我們各自追求風景
面對分離課題 我學會了開心
多慶幸當初沒有錯過你
當我寂寞時 也沉迷回憶

你的愛就像彩虹 劃過天際
不能永遠收集 也驚歎那遺憾的美麗
誰說分手一定是悲劇
時光倒轉我還是要愛你
要不是你 帶我走出恐懼
我沒有再愛的勇氣

你的好就像一首 老歌旋律
聽過多少歌曲 也單戀那最初的熟悉
有些感動沒人能接續
重新選擇我還是要愛你
給我快樂多過於傷心
都很清晰

Jesus

Bless him..
Let him got a good job there ~
Let him got a home there~
Amen !!

SIMBEE tu

Hey ...
I am missing a person who dont love me?
PLEASE wake up from dream !!!

sad day

HE Hurt me the most,
But he ask for people forgive but not me..

Heart

Hey blog,my only friend..
I am talking to u again!!

Pretty night..Pretty morning..

4year once!!

Sure Everyone is smiling,

of course im smiling too,

feel so empty when i smile!

What is this ==

Something i feel so shame
cant even tell out here...

3.45am 12/7/2010

worst day

So shame
so pain
so unbelievable
so cruel
So sad
So hurt
so silly
So betray
but without angry
What words to describe?
I am really so hurt..
No ones can know me...

966 Days

谢谢你,给我尽了力的机会..
考验了我的忍耐力..
考验了我的爱..

HEY YOU !!

If can i hope that we can treat each other honest!
Just like how i tell u, no matter what happened!
Let me be the 1 who knows 1st..

♥ = ?

Babiie
Babie
Baby
Babe ?

Read this !

世界上最寂寞的46件事

1拿起电话，按下号 码后迟迟不敢拨通绿色的按钮。
2在喧闹的地方，只有自己安静地坐着，不想听别人说话。
3打电话给故人，故人说，我很忙，待 会再说。
4遇见开心幸福的事情，无人分享。
5路过一家曾经和喜欢的人一起去过的餐厅，餐厅在被拆除
， 记忆也是。
6夜晚一个人面对黑暗和空洞。
7想对着喜欢过的人笑，结果却笑着哭了出来。
8对关心自己的人 说，没事，我很好，你放心。
9给自己削苹果，想起曾经有个人为你剥开一个芒果时候的

微笑。
10看一部压抑的电影，想哭却哭不出来。
11夜晚一个 人坐巴士，看路边的不停变换的灯光、树和行人。
12听到一句熟悉的歌词，想 起某个曾经说要守护你，现在却不在身边的人。
13一个人看电影，吃爆米花。
14放假的时候，站学校某处在天台上，看天空以及空无一人 的道路。
15吃一道菜，想起有人说，要为你学会它，为你做一辈子。
16 看见似曾相似的背影。
17洗衣服的时候，想起他为你晒衣服的样子。
18大热天在空调房里，记起有个人，曾经为你大汗淋漓奔走，只为你一笑的情景。
19鼓足勇气故意发错一条信息给想要联系的 人，第二天醒来，仍然没有他的消息。
20有人对你说，你真像个小公主，想起 曾经有人真的把你捧得像公主。
21尴尬地遇见一个喜欢你，你却明白自己永远 不可能喜欢上的男生。
22对迎面走来的朋友微笑，朋友却没有看见。
23想起年幼的朋友， 现在却不再联络。
24你说笑话，身边的人不笑，却想起有个人对你说，我是觉得你讲笑话的样子很好笑。
25想要打个电话给父母撒娇，话到嘴边又咽了回去，因为不想让他们担心。
26冬天的时候，在寒风中，裹紧自己的大 衣。
27蜷缩在被子里睡觉。
28做梦梦见一个人，醒来却只有自己一个人。
29公路两边树上新长出绿色的叶子，欢腾而热闹，但热闹是 他们的，你什么也没有。
30穿高跟鞋脚疼，一个人扶着街边的树脱下鞋子。
31东西坏了，自己不会修，又没人帮你修。
32电 影散场，你等的人却仍然没有来。
33精心安排了很久的约会，到了临近对方却回答没有时间。
34一个人拍大头贴。
35睡觉前，收不到晚安的短信息。
36难过的时 候，不知道给谁打电话比较好。
37明明不舍得，但却必须扔掉过去有关记忆的东西的那一刻。
38 对他说，我过的很好，你也要过的好。
39对于别人的伤害，无力去计较，根本不想计较的时候。
40每天醒来必须忘记昨天的不愉快时。
41逛商场时看见美丽的东西，想要买给他，却再也不能买给他。
42看见穿着情侣装的恋人 牵手过马路。
43为了忘记一个人剪头发，更新身边物件。
44打开日记本，看见里面都是一个人的名字。
45有一堆明明不敢面对，却又不舍得删除或者销毁的照片。
46看见一个很像你，经历着和 你曾经一样故事的人。

5th JULY

WELCOME to my World ?

Once the heart was gone..
Once the heart was dead..
It will never ReturN again..
And there is no more pain and tears..

Time was the best Medicine..

Did u agree about this?

Something i was asking myself..
WHY there is so many pain in my life..
WHY i loves him that much ?
WHY jesus allowed people to hurt me that much?
There is too many WHY ..

Not fair ?
When i saw another girl smiling..
I was thinking is there someone can stop my tear
And make me smile forever?
Just simple life..simple talk..
Stay beside me and be the one i can really rely on..
I hope there is no more tears in my future..
He teached me so much, and a big lesson in my life..

Too tired on crying..
Stop that ? can i ?
Jesus hope u give me the strength to handle the pain
And walk along it..
Amen

U dont know me !

Repeat and Repeatss..It make me feel tired ==
Something i knew it but i cant say out and cant ask..

29th JUN

I pray:::::
JESUS,
Please give me a friend that can stay beside me 24hours..
Doesnt want to be alone..
Amen

PeacefuL

A peaceful day i ever had in these year
Since i go kl to having my hair course until now..
I think its about 3year..?
Throw everything away and just thinking for myself..
And i was thinking..
Because of him ..how much did i changed?
My bad tempered, my arrogant..
Everything just lost when he appear in my life..
I tolerant all his shortcoming..bad tempered tat he cant changed..
But once and once i get hurt from him..
Who the one tat console me?
I always hope the person was him but he never..
Did he noticed this? i think he didnt..
Why i cant be stand alone and having my own life..
Always im the one who rely on him too much..
And im awake from sleep..
i shouldnt be like now anymore..
I SHOULD CHANGE myself to a independent girl..
Is it he is mine? or im him?
Listen what my heart talk to me..
Im try hard to left a place for myself in his heart..
I do one's utmost,do the best one can..
But if there are no my place i shouldnt do like now..
I wil let go myself..
Stop pulling myself so hard and suffering..
Hope my heart was always peaceful like now..
Jesus help me to walk along this..

Miss him...

Miss him so muchhh!!
MISS HIM
More than words can describe..

MR.Wong B C

I will forgive you &
scrub all unhappy memory..
This time i confident and believe
i can do this..
**[ But i doesnt hope u will see this post ]**

♥ 928 days ♥

I HATE THURSDAY..
My bad day..
Worst day..
all happened on THURSDAY...

Thinking...

I always thinking how to be a good girl..
How to be a good girlfriend..
And now i was thinking..
My mummy said that i was a good daughter..
But may be im not good enough..
For him..
Am i a good girlfriend?
i think this question started from the day we together..
Until now,
sometime when we argue he said my
tempered was bad? and the way i talk to him is not
polite enough..some more?
Woohhh,
A lot thing telling me that Im not a good girlfriend..
Am i ?
But i know thing that i didnt did well is,
i didnt believe him like others believe their boyfriend..
i didnt look him as the strongest in the world,
Or the people that can protect me..
And i always thinking that why he got so many disadvantage..
for example he is a smoker,
his tempered is 100times worst than mine..
he always talking rude words as he tell me that
he cant correct this bad habit..
A days go by a day.. i know more and more about him,
Instant,
i didnt respect him as much as the passed day..
How horrible if this happened between a couple?
And what maintain our relationship til now?
If asking me, i think its just a habit of us..
We get used to have each other in our life..
Now,he is going back to Kl,
and i have no people to acc me for breakfast,
No people buy my lunch for me,after work..
There are also no people can fetch
me to buy my thing,my dinner..
But cant negate that we have a happy moment too..
When we put down everything..
When we just concentrate on each..
Didnt argue of those little thing..
We are happy..
As i always say we are playing with xiao xiong..
WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY
I cant live manage myself when i have no him..
Thats the reason that i just silent when we argue,
i just silent when he is scolding me..
Silent can stop our argument,
Silent is the way is solve the problem of us..
The end the problem is stil there ?
Ya...
when i close my eye,
the problem is appear on my mind..
And i cant get the happiness like others..
I envy when i look at other couple..
Why they can smile so happily..
And the reason i cant is..
I truss up myself in him..
I never let go him and also myself..
Even i know the reason..
I stil cant let go..
And i keep waiting the miracle..
I hope jesus can change him to a person i really want..
Or I just dont hope to waste my 2year half on him?
Im the silliest..


So sorry for did a post like this here..
I doesnt hope people know much about us..
And i stil hope that we are a sweet couple that make people admire..

Song i love

"Littlest Things" - Lily Allen

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you


Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

Is this the end?
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me

两个人在一起久了

*fugly me...*

两个人在一起久了，会发现自己有时幼稚的像个儿童。
两个人在一起久了，才知道原来一个人可以如此的去想念另

一个 人。
两个人在一起久了，自己的不良爱好会因为对方的不喜欢而终 止。
两个人在一起久了，会比以前更加奋斗，把压力当成动力。
两个人在一起久了，奇怪的变的很乖，会按时吃饭按时睡觉。
两个人在一起久了，父母管不下来的习惯，会因为她的一声哼， 而改正。
两个人在一起久了，会深深的喜欢上以前那份厌恶督促，催促， 教训。
两个人在一起久了，脑子里会老记着去看看手机。即使是个山寨 货。
两个人在一起久了，会常看一些生活小常识，星座相配，异性服 装。
两个人在一起久了，偶尔就和发春状态一样说出我爱你。
两个人在一起久了，撒娇多了，冷言少了，（嗯） 字多了，（不）字少了。

两个人在一起久了，看见相拥，亲吻的场景，会用好浪漫去 形 容。
两个人在一起久了，人会变的很细心很敏感，嘴笨也学会甜言蜜 语了。
两个人在一起久了，会在任何时间任何地点，为了一个可爱的幻 想站着傻笑。
两个人在一起久了，常在琢磨是因为寂寞才想你还是想你才寂 寞。
两个人在一起久了，漫不经心打听她小姐妹的情侣是否很出众， 很乐意的给自己增加压力。
两个人在一起久了，即使搂在怀里了，也会为了自己一个虚有的 幻想而担心失去，很不安心。

两个人在一起久了，平常游戏的时间是在专心的关注着对方 的签 名，日志，一切有关系的讯息。
两个人在一起久了，会很想陪伴着她去做她想做的事，即使是自 己从没触碰过的。
两个人在一起久了，通常只是偷瞄走过的异性，然后惊慌失措的 说句还是你最漂亮。
两个人在一起久了，兄弟，朋友的会常对自己说一句话。（重色 轻友的家伙）
两个人在一起久了，虚伪说你真是个大坏蛋，内心不知道有多怜 惜这个大坏蛋。
两个人在一起久了，是会上瘾的。


REAL and ugly me..
i will update my blog when im free... AS FAST AS POSSIBLE ^^

9th March

LIFE..



Feel Lazy to update my blog,
But when while i reading others blog..
I think blog is also a good thing to remind us
About our memory and the sad or happy memory..
Remind us how many did we growth,
What we did in these day,
What we get and what we lose,
What we learned from our life..
May be the reader cant get it..
But when we read back..
It really Remind me alot..alot..
Life is just like a drawing without eraser..
I agreed this!!
I always look at the clock and think about
How can the time pass so fast..
Second by second, minit by minit
Time was gone cant be return
How much time i left?
And what the thing to do make my life meaningful..
Which part should i start to do to appreciate
people beside me..my family..
by saying is always easier than doing..
So god teach me to become
A good daughter,
A good sister..
A good girlfriend..
But i always confident about im not a bad girl!!
haha^^